It’s hard being unable to do much but I keep focusing on making the most of what I am able to do and on getting stronger and more capable each day. Yesterday I was able to walk down the end of my block for the first time. And I did it again later in the…
Author: Erin Cahill-Wetzel
Signs
Several days after I returned home from my surgery, we saw a beautiful rainbow after a storm and couldn’t help but hope it was a sign. The morning of my oncology appointment last week, my friend Jane and I were sitting in my backyard. (Being outside has been so nice!) A cardinal flew down and…
Happy Mother’s Day
This Mother’s Day I am so grateful to be here. Being a mom is the greatest thing I could ever ask for. Even though I am not able to do much this Mother’s Day this year I am focusing on getting better and stronger. Each small step or task is getting me closer to “normal.”…
Facing the Bad News
Tomorrow is going to be hard. We are going to learn that my cancer has returned. The prognosis is not good and I will die from the disease. I am prepared for this and my heart aches for my kids and Chris. I have been suffocated by fear and pain the past two weeks. But…
Moving Forward
Today went ok. I went outside for the first time since I’ve been home. I took a short walk two houses down and back. I had physical therapy and it felt great. I did lunges and squats. I worked on moving on steps. It was so good to move and feel like I am making…
Small Things
I know I need to focus on small things and just being here to enjoy my kids who are my everything. It’s been hard to do anything beyond cry and doom scroll. Last night I decided to try a puzzle. I let Chase get one for me and he was also going to do one….
Trying to Keep it Together
How do I pretend I’m not terrified I’m dying. How do I go through the motions around the kids when things are not ok? The past few days have been a struggle as I prepare to face the reality that the lesion was likely a recurrence of my cancer and the prognosis is not good….
It Could be Worse
I know there are times I whine and complain about all that happened and I’ve been through. But the reality is, and yes it’s cliche, but it could be worse. The most important thing is here and that’s all that matters. Thankfully the only complications I’ve had are related to reconstruction and not the treatment…