I’ve lost my hair. I’ll soon lose my breasts. I haven’t lost any weight since I had Bryce. I feel gross and overweight. I want to be close to my pre-pregnancy weight. I want to feel comfortable in my body right now.
As I prepared to head to the shore for a few days I finally caved and bought some bigger clothes. The weight just isn’t coming off due to the steroids I’m on and it’s time to accept the weight gain and find comfortable non-maternity clothes.
I also bought a few more hats for myself. I had several but I decided to get some new ones because why not embrace my lack of hair and find fun hats to wear.
I also came to the acceptance that this is me right now. I may not look the way I want right now but I’m here. I’m alive. I get to spend time with my kids. I get to spend time with them away for a long weekend.
Right now it’s all about survival. If I look like crap who cares I’m here. The hair will come back. The weight should hopefully come off once I’m done with the steroids. The breasts will not come back and that’s ok. I know it’s what I need to do to hopefully fully rid myself of this cancer.
So this weekend is not only a much needed getaway after an incredibly stressful year. I’m also using it as a time to embrace me and where I’m at right now. I’m here. I’m not frail. I’m able to spend time with my family.
This is where I’m at right now. I’m fighting to beat this terrible disease. Doesn’t matter what I weigh, what I look like, I’m here. I’m enjoying the time away and accepting and embracing who I am.
Sometimes we all need to take a step back and accept where we are at, at the moment. It may not be where we want, but that’s not what matters. What matters is we are here to embrace and accept whatever life throws at us, good or bad.
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