I’ve always been low maintenance and not cared much about my appearance. I like to “keep it real” and what you see is what you get. I’m glad I’ve had this attitude since cancer changes your appearance especially your hair. But truthfully, it’s not what’s on the outside that matters but what’s on the inside that really counts.
Despite trying to not worry about my hair loss, I still ended up thinking about it way too much. Now that my hair is in, I don’t have to worry about that but my latest setback had a return of the drain. And the drain meant the return to the shirts with the pockets on the inside. After my mastectomy I wrote about all the things I could jokingly do with these shirts after I’m done with the drains. Having to wear it again because of surgery to remove an infected expander was not one of the things I had in mind, but here we are.
These shirts are great when the drains are in and thankfully I only had one in which is so much easier than four. So when I went for walks in the morning Chris was laughing at me, saying I’m half dressed up and look funny. And trust me I felt weird wearing a cotton button up shirt to walk in with athletic shorts but the drain shirts are just so convenient that I don’t care how silly I look.
This year is all about survival. So it really doesn’t matter what I look like or what I wear, I’m here. And that’s all that matters.
And on Friday I got my drain out so I can wear workout shirts again! But I will take it easy so I avoid opening an incision again!
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