With my new job which I am still struggling mightily to accept, I feel like I bought a house that a realtor is convincing me is the right one for me. There’s something lacking with the house or the realtor knows there’s probably better fits on the market but they are determined to make this sale to me.
Coming from my admin role this would have been the “perfect job” for me. I was used to the desk work, was doing what I could sports information wise since no one else did it and yes it would have been perfect. But then I took on a managerial role that was active and I liked it despite the many hassles and complaints.
It’s like coming back to the house you checked out and it was ok but not exactly what you wanted. And this is actually what happened to us when we were house hunting. We had looked at our house and initially thought no but ended up back here and bought it. It was great as a starter house for two, three kids max. But here we are trying to make it work with five kids and it’s really too small. But here we are stuck, trying to make it work.
Much like here I am in my new role, stuck, trying to make it work. I never anticipated going back to a desk job but cancer hit and here I am. I never anticipated having five kids but here I am.
Instead of seeing all the negatives and faults with the property and job, I need to focus on what is good. Location, location, location right? We love where we live and can literally cut through our back yard to walk to the elementary school and the kids will then have a little less than mile walk to middle and high school. We are in a good district at least for this area. It’s easy for us to get where we need to go.
My new job has some good things too. I can work from home and there’s a lot of flexibility. But I still see that old job and long for it. Much like I still would love a bigger house but know it’s not happening.
I know it takes time to adjust to change. And I’m trying but it’s hard. It’s hard not to think the grass is greener on the other side. It’s hard not to feel screwed. It’s hard not too long for the normalcy I expected when I returned to work and instead am thrown for this whole change and adjustment.
We are trying to make the house work much like I’m trying to make the job work. There will be frustrations, disappointments and limitations but there are positives to be found as well. I just need to convince myself this is the perfect fit and the right deal even if it doesn’t feel that way right now.
Sold. Not quite, sale pending, not there yet. Looking at the market, maybe. Staying and making the most of what you have, trying.
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