There are times I feel like a failure because I compare myself to other moms. I saw some over the top first birthday party pics online and felt awful I didn’t have a party for our little miracle Bryce. He’s a chemo baby and we only had a cake and no decorations or anything special.
We didn’t do fancy snacks or displays or the usual first birthday stuff. And then I realized I beat cancer while pregnant. And that’s more than any first party anyone could throw. I’m here and was there for Bryce throughout his first year despite all I went through.
So the fact that I didn’t do anything special for Bryce’s first birthday doesn’t matter. The special thing I did was kick cancer’s ass so I can hopefully spend many years with my littlest man. That’s more special and important than any party we could throw.
So I need to stop the comparisons to others which I do way too often and realize I did enough. I underwent half my chemo while pregnant with Bryce and the resumed the other half two weeks after having Bryce. I went back to working full time and have four other kids the oldest who is 8.
So I’m doing just fine. Party or no party, walking or crawling, Bryce is fine too. We both have overcome a lot and us both being here is enough.
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