I know I need to focus on small things and just being here to enjoy my kids who are my everything. It’s been hard to do anything beyond cry and doom scroll.
Last night I decided to try a puzzle. I let Chase get one for me and he was also going to do one. He gave me a 48 piece one in a ziploc that had no box so I actually had no idea what it was supposed to look like.
Puzzles are great for the brain at any age and I was excited for the challenge a week and two days after my brain surgery. Chris laughed as I said this is a legit challenge because I don’t know what the puzzle is supposed to look like!
I took my time and completed the puzzle of a construction truck. Chase completed a 100 piece puzzle while I did mine and we had a good time. I cried some before, during and after our puzzles but I tried to focus on the task as much as I could to try limit getting caught up in the fear of what lies ahead for me.
It was a small thing that went a long way that I will need to continue to do to get through each day and to be there with my kids. That is all that matters and all I need to focus on. I am going to do whatever it takes to give myself as much time as I can with my kids, my world, my everything.