Tomorrow is going to be hard. We are going to learn that my cancer has returned. The prognosis is not good and I will die from the disease. I am prepared for this and my heart aches for my kids and Chris. I have been suffocated by fear and pain the past two weeks. But…
Month: May 2023
Moving Forward
Today went ok. I went outside for the first time since I’ve been home. I took a short walk two houses down and back. I had physical therapy and it felt great. I did lunges and squats. I worked on moving on steps. It was so good to move and feel like I am making…
Small Things
I know I need to focus on small things and just being here to enjoy my kids who are my everything. It’s been hard to do anything beyond cry and doom scroll. Last night I decided to try a puzzle. I let Chase get one for me and he was also going to do one….
Trying to Keep it Together
How do I pretend I’m not terrified I’m dying. How do I go through the motions around the kids when things are not ok? The past few days have been a struggle as I prepare to face the reality that the lesion was likely a recurrence of my cancer and the prognosis is not good….